Bismillahir rahman nir rahim...
Allahu Akhkbar.. Alhamdulillah,dgn tenaga yg x seberapa ni..(dan juga petrol kereta yg baru diisikan..hehe) dpt juga aku,along n shai buat 'adventure' jelajah. misinya dua jer sebnrnya.. mau isi minyak kereta n.. urm,x payah bgtau lah. nanti bocor rahsia.hehe.tapi last2 ada jugak aku beli McD,baju lengan pjg n stokin di Giant.heheh!
Ya Rabbi...byk jugak dugaan dlm minggu nie.Alhamdulillah,ujian Allah semua tu n aku pun dpt handle dgn lbh baik banding sblm ini. InsyaAllah,moga aku dpt trus istiqamah & perbaiki lagi diri aku dari masa ke semasa.Amin!
Kelmarin (Selasa,29.07.08) ada sesuatu berlaku yg buat aku risau+panik betul2. Hyrul tetiba kol dr masjid bgtau yg dia kena sengat tebuan. Ya Allah! masa aku ambi dia kt masjid,ok lg masih dia ni. tapi bila aku jumpa dia balik dlm treatment room (d medic clinic kt kolej kediaman kitorg)... pedih sungguh muka dia,dah tu..tembam mcm mukanya plak yg kena sengat.pdhal kaki dia yg kena. btl2 buat aku nak nangis tgk dia masa tu.kesian betul. suntikan yg doktor bg plak x bg kesan. slh sorg doktor(mungkin doktor lah..wallahu ahlam) ckp dgn aku mungkin bisa tu cpt merebak ke seluruh bdnnya sbb antibodi dia lemah.apa taknya..dia da mmg sedia sakit demam n sakit tekak. Inna lillahi rajiun..Hyrul suruh aku blk ja,rasanya sbb dia xnak susahkan aku. tapi dia xtau,bila dia suruh aku balik n biarkan dia sorg di klinik tu..LAGILAH AKU SUSAH HATI!!! >.< lagi2 bila da tgk keadaan dia yg smpi kena inject 2 kali tu. aku balik bilik jugaklah bila doktor yg berckp dgn aku awl2 tu ckp insyaAllah,dia xda apa2.lgpun,aku jugak nak get ready utk kelas SPB aku yg start jam 7 mlm. pas bg no. fon aku kt pihak klinik n ambi no. fon mak Hyrul baru aku balik bilik. blok aku dpn blok yg mana terletaknya medic clinic tu..dekat ja.
ntahlah napa..tapi masa get ready (mandi) tu,firasat hati aku kuat menyatakn yg henfon aku berdering.pdhal silent mode tu..bila masuk bilik,btl2 ada missed call dr Hyrul.bila aku kol blk,rupanya dia kena hantar g hospital jugak. ingatkn hospital yg berdekatan. ada jugak lah aku terkejut babun jap bila tau kena hantar gi hospital pusat.huhu,tapi xpa. aku percaya pd Allah.Alhamdulillah,sempat jugak aku hantar Hyrul g hospital pusat tu n balik kampus utk kelas (sempat jugak solat maghrib!).
Paling aku sedih bila dgr kwn baik aku tu mengerang kesakitan bila sudah mau sampai hospital. aku cuma dpt tlg berdoa pd Allah yg maha Pengasih & Penyayang saja sambil memandu. Dlm x sedar,aku ada jugak t'nangis..sebak wooo.
Alhamdulillahir rabbil alamin.. setakat mlm ni,dia da ok. Syukur sgt2 pd Allah~ aku pun xdpt tlg dia sgt..sekadar termampu saja.
Huhu,masa jenguk dia di treatment room..tgk dia cam Fahri (Ayat2 Cinta) masa Fahri sakit di hospital plak. Tapi yg penting,batas antara kitorg ttp dijaga lah..(nda lah aku ni cam Maria tu plak..huhu.Nauzubillah min zalik..)tenangkan dirinya guna kata2 jelah~
Selain men “jelajah” pagi td.. antara aktiviti aku yg lain ialah tido pas solat Zuhur hingga Asar(Alhamdulillah,dpt solat awal waktu!moga istiqamah!)..then dkt2 Maghrib,aku & dieja gi surau.ada tazkirah utk israk mikraj (hari ni kaaaaaaaaaaaaaan…). Best ar bila abg Bunyamin (FELO) yg bg tazkirah. Pas tu,mkn jap…then gi meeting DEAMAN dgn Pengetua. Oklah..overall,agak progresif n positif jugak. Siap2 lg Pengetua tu kenal aku ni budak SKTM.hehe. x kisah lah.. Alamak,lupa plak aku minta no. fon ketua bhgn Fotografi & Dokumentasi aku tu…xpa,pandai2 la aku mencari maklumat tu nanti..hehe.
ok..dah..dah...mo rest jap. besok class full~!!! >_<;;
Wallahu ahlam~
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Thursday, July 31, 2008
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Bismillahir rahman nir rahim...
ni lah antara entri2 yg aku x sempat post..
-ditulis pd 27.07.2008.. di rumah..pagi..baru bangun.huhu-
Ya Allah,ya Rabb... mengapa aku bisa merasakan yg aku & Fahri semcm ada sudah jurang/jarak yg makin memisah. Aku takut kehilangannya.dia bagaikan seorg abg & teman rapat yg slalu m'ambil berat ttg diri aku,juga begitu penyayang,tenang & sgt bersabar dgn karenah aku. Ya,aku akui itu yg buat aku sgt senang & sentiasa ingin bersamanya. Wallahu ahlam kalo dia utk aku atau x. semua itu ketentuan Illahi. Terpulanglah. Pilihan Allah lah yg terbaik.
W/pn x sehensem Fahri dlm Ayat2 Cinta tu,dia punya pegangan agama yg cukup kuat & ada leadership pd dirinya. Aku takut mimpi beberapa bln yg lalu pasal dia tinggalkn jd kenyataan. Nauzubillah.. jan sampai p'sahabatan sama sekali putus sudahlah. Nauzubillah min zalik~!!
Tapi,hal ini sedikit sebyk m'buatkan aku sedar. Jika benar aku inginkan seorg yg baik & soleh sptnya,aku mesti jd seorg muslimah yg lbh baik & solehah dr diri aku skrg. Sesungguhnya,Allah SWT juga suda m'janjikn dlm Al-Quran bhw lelaki baik adalah utk perempuan yg baik dan bgitu juga sebaliknya.
Aku percaya pada janji Allah yg pasti itu.Aku mesti b'usaha utk m'p'baiki diri sndr. Tabiat buruk perlu dibuang & diperbaiki. Segala tutur kata p'lu jg diperbaiki agar x slalu jd mcm electron dlm excited state. Huhu,terus-terang aku tegaskan di sini..aku bkn ingin b'ubah/m'p'baiki diri semata2 krn si Fahri itu tetapi krn aku sgt sedih dgn diri sndr bila m'yedari byk kekurangan/kelemahan pd diriku. Aku rasa sgt nyesal & benci bila t'sedar yg aku sdg/sudah marah2 (auzubillahi minasyaitanir rajim..). lbh teruk bila x t'kawal smpi org sekeliling jg t'kena tempias efeknya. Smpi sorg sahabat baik aku slalu saja tanya,"Awk marah ke?" hampir stp kali slepas b'gurau@m'genakan aku.Rimas tu..bila acapkali diajukan persoalan sebegitu. Aiyaya...
Slain perangai marah2 tu,ingin juga aku ubah gaya p'ckpan aku (yg slalu dgn constant max volume - mcm x payah pki speaker/mikrofon lg kalo mau b'ckp). =.=;; suara aku ni mmg blh lose control n jd kuat.plg x best bila dlm "excited state" lah..apa lagi.Sekurang2nya aku mesti sentiasa b'usaha utk b'ckp dgn lbh lemah lembut.mcmlah mo jd muslimah nie..
Alhamdulillah..kwn2 byk m'bantu. Antaranya, nasihat dr Hyrul..bykkanlah b'zikir & m'baca Quran.InsyaAllah,blh kurangkan perangai yg x disukai tu.Jd aku mesti istiqamah dlm b'zikir & baca Quran! INSYAALLAH,BLH! Aku jg merasakan dgn ibadat (wajib/sunat) kpd Allah lah antara cara yg blh m'bntu kes cam aku ni.Allah itu ar-Rahman & ar-Rahim..
Cukuplah utk di sini saja dulu..aku masih di rumah (balik rumah kemarin ptg - 26.07.2008) & akan balik kampus ptg ni. InsyaAllah.
Wallahu ahlam.
-ditulis pd 29.07.2008-
Ya Allah..ya Rabb..hanya kpdMu aku m'adu..hanya Engkau yg Maha M'getahui perasaanku lahiriah & batiniah ya Rabb..
Aku ini benar2 bingung & bengang dgn diri aku sendiri. Ntah knapa sejak dua menjak ni,ada saja yg x kena. terhantuk sini sana w/pun dlm bilik sendiri (haha,nasib baik x sampai kena pakai plaster cam dlm sem 1!!)..lupa bwa fail ke kelas.. paling "best",t'tumpah sup soto panas atas kaki aku n then,blh2 aku ni ntah kebal ka bebal..begitu panas pun,lambat react ni..w/pun kaki aku rasa panas sgt,tp bknnya digerakkn kaki tu lgsg (bila rumet m'dkt baru aku bergerak.huhu). oleh sbb tu lah kaki aku sakit n jd merah2.
Alhamdulillah,mgkn itu semua hanyalah p'ujian Allah pd diri ku. Tgk samada aku blh btl2 atau sekurang2nya sedikit b'ubah (dr short-temper kpd yg lbh tenang). Alhamdulillah, w/pun ttp ada jg mulut ni nda tahan utk bising2 tp x sampai thp teruk. Syukur!!!
~`~ perenggan seterusnya mls mo letak sini. sendiri tau ja cukuplah.. ~`~
Wallahu ahlam.
ni lah antara entri2 yg aku x sempat post..
-ditulis pd 27.07.2008.. di rumah..pagi..baru bangun.huhu-
Ya Allah,ya Rabb... mengapa aku bisa merasakan yg aku & Fahri semcm ada sudah jurang/jarak yg makin memisah. Aku takut kehilangannya.dia bagaikan seorg abg & teman rapat yg slalu m'ambil berat ttg diri aku,juga begitu penyayang,tenang & sgt bersabar dgn karenah aku. Ya,aku akui itu yg buat aku sgt senang & sentiasa ingin bersamanya. Wallahu ahlam kalo dia utk aku atau x. semua itu ketentuan Illahi. Terpulanglah. Pilihan Allah lah yg terbaik.
W/pn x sehensem Fahri dlm Ayat2 Cinta tu,dia punya pegangan agama yg cukup kuat & ada leadership pd dirinya. Aku takut mimpi beberapa bln yg lalu pasal dia tinggalkn jd kenyataan. Nauzubillah.. jan sampai p'sahabatan sama sekali putus sudahlah. Nauzubillah min zalik~!!
Tapi,hal ini sedikit sebyk m'buatkan aku sedar. Jika benar aku inginkan seorg yg baik & soleh sptnya,aku mesti jd seorg muslimah yg lbh baik & solehah dr diri aku skrg. Sesungguhnya,Allah SWT juga suda m'janjikn dlm Al-Quran bhw lelaki baik adalah utk perempuan yg baik dan bgitu juga sebaliknya.
Aku percaya pada janji Allah yg pasti itu.Aku mesti b'usaha utk m'p'baiki diri sndr. Tabiat buruk perlu dibuang & diperbaiki. Segala tutur kata p'lu jg diperbaiki agar x slalu jd mcm electron dlm excited state. Huhu,terus-terang aku tegaskan di sini..aku bkn ingin b'ubah/m'p'baiki diri semata2 krn si Fahri itu tetapi krn aku sgt sedih dgn diri sndr bila m'yedari byk kekurangan/kelemahan pd diriku. Aku rasa sgt nyesal & benci bila t'sedar yg aku sdg/sudah marah2 (auzubillahi minasyaitanir rajim..). lbh teruk bila x t'kawal smpi org sekeliling jg t'kena tempias efeknya. Smpi sorg sahabat baik aku slalu saja tanya,"Awk marah ke?" hampir stp kali slepas b'gurau@m'genakan aku.Rimas tu..bila acapkali diajukan persoalan sebegitu. Aiyaya...
Slain perangai marah2 tu,ingin juga aku ubah gaya p'ckpan aku (yg slalu dgn constant max volume - mcm x payah pki speaker/mikrofon lg kalo mau b'ckp). =.=;; suara aku ni mmg blh lose control n jd kuat.plg x best bila dlm "excited state" lah..apa lagi.Sekurang2nya aku mesti sentiasa b'usaha utk b'ckp dgn lbh lemah lembut.mcmlah mo jd muslimah nie..
Alhamdulillah..kwn2 byk m'bantu. Antaranya, nasihat dr Hyrul..bykkanlah b'zikir & m'baca Quran.InsyaAllah,blh kurangkan perangai yg x disukai tu.Jd aku mesti istiqamah dlm b'zikir & baca Quran! INSYAALLAH,BLH! Aku jg merasakan dgn ibadat (wajib/sunat) kpd Allah lah antara cara yg blh m'bntu kes cam aku ni.Allah itu ar-Rahman & ar-Rahim..
Cukuplah utk di sini saja dulu..aku masih di rumah (balik rumah kemarin ptg - 26.07.2008) & akan balik kampus ptg ni. InsyaAllah.
Wallahu ahlam.
-ditulis pd 29.07.2008-
Ya Allah..ya Rabb..hanya kpdMu aku m'adu..hanya Engkau yg Maha M'getahui perasaanku lahiriah & batiniah ya Rabb..
Aku ini benar2 bingung & bengang dgn diri aku sendiri. Ntah knapa sejak dua menjak ni,ada saja yg x kena. terhantuk sini sana w/pun dlm bilik sendiri (haha,nasib baik x sampai kena pakai plaster cam dlm sem 1!!)..lupa bwa fail ke kelas.. paling "best",t'tumpah sup soto panas atas kaki aku n then,blh2 aku ni ntah kebal ka bebal..begitu panas pun,lambat react ni..w/pun kaki aku rasa panas sgt,tp bknnya digerakkn kaki tu lgsg (bila rumet m'dkt baru aku bergerak.huhu). oleh sbb tu lah kaki aku sakit n jd merah2.
Alhamdulillah,mgkn itu semua hanyalah p'ujian Allah pd diri ku. Tgk samada aku blh btl2 atau sekurang2nya sedikit b'ubah (dr short-temper kpd yg lbh tenang). Alhamdulillah, w/pun ttp ada jg mulut ni nda tahan utk bising2 tp x sampai thp teruk. Syukur!!!
~`~ perenggan seterusnya mls mo letak sini. sendiri tau ja cukuplah.. ~`~
Wallahu ahlam.
Friday, July 25, 2008
tadaima~~ (i'm home)
Bismillahir rahman nir rahim...
Alhamdulillah,akhirnya dpt juga aku titipkan sesuatu dlm blog aku ini setlh sekian beberapa hari gone with d wind..hehe.
Home lah kunun (dlm tajuk),padahal insyaAllah besok baru balik rumah..
Sepatutnya minggu ni ndak payah balik..reserve balik minggu dpn n minggu2 dpn tu..sbb 3hb Ogos(ahad depan) bday Mama..pas tu exactly seminggu after dat..(10hb) bday Bapa plak. Tapi aku ndak dpt blk time bday Bapa sbb ikut DEAMAN (delegasi amal kemerdekaan). huhu,alhamdulillah..dpt kebenaran dr Bapa sudah~
Anyways,biarlah aku coretkan sedikit pasal aktiviti prog Pembangunan Modal Insan (PMI) yg ikut join sbg AJK minggu lalu tu. Best~ nda rugi juga ikut sbb banyak pengalaman + kawan baru + pengetahuan yang aku dpt.
Dari hari pertama sampai (petang pas Asar baru aku,Maznee,Kam & Ned@Kecik sampai masjid).Kitorg kena setup tabir utk tmpt tido muslimat di tingkat 3 masjid. Berpeluh2 jugak lah kami2 ni buat keja.tapi alhamdulillah,siap jugak.sibuk betul aku,Kam & Kecik sampai kami yg AJK ni pun x sempat mau mandi (Nasib baik ada mandi awal2!!).
Hari kedua permulaan aktiviti2 utk para peserta~ Sempat jugaklah aku ni ambi2 gambar.hehe.penat punya pasal..blh2 aku,maz,kam,kecik & dayah tetido dkt tangga di tingkat satu(luar bhgn solat).Astaghfirullah al'azim. Time kuliah dasar utk peserta plak tu..sah2 penat & x cukup tido.Aku ni plak kepanasan sambil tido sampai muka aku berpeluh cam tgh stim muka utk rawatan kecantikan plak..aparah..hehe.last2 aku gi join kam & kecik di tingkat 2(ruang solat muslimat).Alhamdulillah,dpt juga sambung tido dgn adanya kipas~ (tido bukan alang2,skali dgn tudung..hehe).
Banyak perkara2 yg menarik bg aku sepjg program ni.Tapi cam malas pula mo taip (sbbnya tenet line skrg ni cam bermasalah ja..).
Apa yg penting ialah outcome yg aku dpt dr PMI ni. Sepjg PMI ini part plg aku suka ialah masa mkn.bukan apa;sbb masa ni kami mkn bersama2 dgn share satu talam besar.jarang2 kan dpt pluang cam tu. Solat jemaah sepjg PMI plak membuatkan aku rindu utk solat berjemaah bila sudah balik dr prog tu.
Kuliah/ceramah2 yg diberikan pun cukup best.
haiz..pa lagi aku mo taipkan dlm entri ni suda ar? Lupa plak...baru2 ni byk assignments & tutorial homeworks.takut aku kalo2 ketinggalan di blkg.oh,tidaaaaaak!! aku mesti berusaha jugak!! skrg ni aku tgh mencari maklumat utk projek SPB (seni peribumi borneo). InsyaAllah dpt buat dgn baik dgn 2 org member aku tu.hehe. Lagipun,harap2 dpt cari informen.n alhamdulillah utk DEAMAN nti,tmpt yg kami akan pigi tu ada kemungkinan adalah tmpt yg kump.ku mau pilih utk projek kami.mana tau dpt jugak cari maklumat@informen time DEAMAN tu nanti.. InsyaAllah.
BAhh...cukup2lah dulu buat kali ni.Reena & Dieja suda bertolak ke hutan utk kem kluarga sekolah dorg.. huhu. aku bawa Ina balik rumah besok.Harap2 xda perubahan rancangan plak.INsyaAllah~
bye for now.sakit perut juga nie! (>_<);;
p.s: Ya Allah,berilah aku petunjuk sama ada Fahri(si Kurma) itu utkku atau tdk..sesungguhnya Engkau yg Maha Mengetahui segala sesuatu..Amin..
Alhamdulillah,akhirnya dpt juga aku titipkan sesuatu dlm blog aku ini setlh sekian beberapa hari gone with d wind..hehe.
Home lah kunun (dlm tajuk),padahal insyaAllah besok baru balik rumah..
Sepatutnya minggu ni ndak payah balik..reserve balik minggu dpn n minggu2 dpn tu..sbb 3hb Ogos(ahad depan) bday Mama..pas tu exactly seminggu after dat..(10hb) bday Bapa plak. Tapi aku ndak dpt blk time bday Bapa sbb ikut DEAMAN (delegasi amal kemerdekaan). huhu,alhamdulillah..dpt kebenaran dr Bapa sudah~
Anyways,biarlah aku coretkan sedikit pasal aktiviti prog Pembangunan Modal Insan (PMI) yg ikut join sbg AJK minggu lalu tu. Best~ nda rugi juga ikut sbb banyak pengalaman + kawan baru + pengetahuan yang aku dpt.
Dari hari pertama sampai (petang pas Asar baru aku,Maznee,Kam & Ned@Kecik sampai masjid).Kitorg kena setup tabir utk tmpt tido muslimat di tingkat 3 masjid. Berpeluh2 jugak lah kami2 ni buat keja.tapi alhamdulillah,siap jugak.sibuk betul aku,Kam & Kecik sampai kami yg AJK ni pun x sempat mau mandi (Nasib baik ada mandi awal2!!).
Hari kedua permulaan aktiviti2 utk para peserta~ Sempat jugaklah aku ni ambi2 gambar.hehe.penat punya pasal..blh2 aku,maz,kam,kecik & dayah tetido dkt tangga di tingkat satu(luar bhgn solat).Astaghfirullah al'azim. Time kuliah dasar utk peserta plak tu..sah2 penat & x cukup tido.Aku ni plak kepanasan sambil tido sampai muka aku berpeluh cam tgh stim muka utk rawatan kecantikan plak..aparah..hehe.last2 aku gi join kam & kecik di tingkat 2(ruang solat muslimat).Alhamdulillah,dpt juga sambung tido dgn adanya kipas~ (tido bukan alang2,skali dgn tudung..hehe).
Banyak perkara2 yg menarik bg aku sepjg program ni.Tapi cam malas pula mo taip (sbbnya tenet line skrg ni cam bermasalah ja..).
Apa yg penting ialah outcome yg aku dpt dr PMI ni. Sepjg PMI ini part plg aku suka ialah masa mkn.bukan apa;sbb masa ni kami mkn bersama2 dgn share satu talam besar.jarang2 kan dpt pluang cam tu. Solat jemaah sepjg PMI plak membuatkan aku rindu utk solat berjemaah bila sudah balik dr prog tu.
Kuliah/ceramah2 yg diberikan pun cukup best.
haiz..pa lagi aku mo taipkan dlm entri ni suda ar? Lupa plak...baru2 ni byk assignments & tutorial homeworks.takut aku kalo2 ketinggalan di blkg.oh,tidaaaaaak!! aku mesti berusaha jugak!! skrg ni aku tgh mencari maklumat utk projek SPB (seni peribumi borneo). InsyaAllah dpt buat dgn baik dgn 2 org member aku tu.hehe. Lagipun,harap2 dpt cari informen.n alhamdulillah utk DEAMAN nti,tmpt yg kami akan pigi tu ada kemungkinan adalah tmpt yg kump.ku mau pilih utk projek kami.mana tau dpt jugak cari maklumat@informen time DEAMAN tu nanti.. InsyaAllah.
BAhh...cukup2lah dulu buat kali ni.Reena & Dieja suda bertolak ke hutan utk kem kluarga sekolah dorg.. huhu. aku bawa Ina balik rumah besok.Harap2 xda perubahan rancangan plak.INsyaAllah~
bye for now.sakit perut juga nie! (>_<);;
p.s: Ya Allah,berilah aku petunjuk sama ada Fahri(si Kurma) itu utkku atau tdk..sesungguhnya Engkau yg Maha Mengetahui segala sesuatu..Amin..
Monday, July 21, 2008
hari2 minggu ku di masjid...
Bismillahirrahman nir rahim..
Alhamdulillahir rabbil alamin.. setelah 3 hari bersama sahabat2 & jugak adik2 dlm program Pembangunan Modal Insan (PMI) di masjid universiti,aku kembali lagi ke blog ini. Sepjg prog tu,malas mau bawa laptop sbb takut penat ja bawa tapi tdk digunakan pun.menyusahkan diri saja la plak kan... *pause-azan Zuhur*
Ahh...penat lah plak rasanya. dr semlm tertido kt bilik kak long (Ina) masa petang;pas balik dr masjid.
Alhamdulillahir rabbil alamin.. setelah 3 hari bersama sahabat2 & jugak adik2 dlm program Pembangunan Modal Insan (PMI) di masjid universiti,aku kembali lagi ke blog ini. Sepjg prog tu,malas mau bawa laptop sbb takut penat ja bawa tapi tdk digunakan pun.menyusahkan diri saja la plak kan... *pause-azan Zuhur*
Ahh...penat lah plak rasanya. dr semlm tertido kt bilik kak long (Ina) masa petang;pas balik dr masjid.
Friday, July 18, 2008
bingung..bingung..
Bismillahir rahman nir rahim..
Salamun alaik..
Huhu...lepas asar petang ni,aku akan mengerakkan diri ke masjid uni. ada program Pembangunan Modal Insan sana sampai ari ahad ni. so,i'll be away til sunday :) doakan diriku ya kwn2.
jujur diakui,aku takut jugak utk terlibat (jd ajk) sbbnya bknnya aku besa ngan ajk2 lain.niat aku join sbb:
-menolong kwn dgn niat ikhlas nak menolong
-tambah ilmu (sambil2 jd ajk) krn Allah dan ilmu2 yg bakal diajarkan pun bukannya senang kalo takat belajar d kelas..
-tambah pengalaman jugak..
apalah kwn2 lelaki se-course aku ni..ada2 sja dorg nie. ada yg tanya kalo 2 cincin yg aku pakai pada jari manis (kiri kanan) ada apa2 maksud..ada plak yg ckp tu cincin p'tunangan aku. huhu,mcm2 dorg ni ya. (kena blsan sbb bohong sunat kt "mamat indon" yg penah kaco aku tu ke? sbb aku ckp ngan dia aku da bertunang..kunun.) Ada yg sengaja lg ckp kalo ada chance utk dorg utk ngorat..hahahah! nasib baik kitorg semua mmg sporting n suka main2. tapi tiap kali dorg saja2 usha aku cam tu, mesti t'ingat kt Fahri @ Kurma aku tu.huhu.. sbb kdg2 bila aku bohong sunat yg aku ni da ada tunang pun,aku ingat dia ja tu. Astaghfirullah al'azim..aku ni. (>_<);;
*ngantuk* ahh,aku nak tdo jap lah sblm g klas jpn jam 11 nanti. harap2 abis awl lagi. kalo ya,ada masa aku nak mengemas brg2 utk stay kat masjid dan insya-Allah,harap2 smpt buat soklan tutorial Thermodynamics jugak.
Sleeeeeeeeeeeeeep!
Allah yubarik fik semua..
Salamun alaik..
Huhu...lepas asar petang ni,aku akan mengerakkan diri ke masjid uni. ada program Pembangunan Modal Insan sana sampai ari ahad ni. so,i'll be away til sunday :) doakan diriku ya kwn2.
jujur diakui,aku takut jugak utk terlibat (jd ajk) sbbnya bknnya aku besa ngan ajk2 lain.niat aku join sbb:
-menolong kwn dgn niat ikhlas nak menolong
-tambah ilmu (sambil2 jd ajk) krn Allah dan ilmu2 yg bakal diajarkan pun bukannya senang kalo takat belajar d kelas..
-tambah pengalaman jugak..
apalah kwn2 lelaki se-course aku ni..ada2 sja dorg nie. ada yg tanya kalo 2 cincin yg aku pakai pada jari manis (kiri kanan) ada apa2 maksud..ada plak yg ckp tu cincin p'tunangan aku. huhu,mcm2 dorg ni ya. (kena blsan sbb bohong sunat kt "mamat indon" yg penah kaco aku tu ke? sbb aku ckp ngan dia aku da bertunang..kunun.) Ada yg sengaja lg ckp kalo ada chance utk dorg utk ngorat..hahahah! nasib baik kitorg semua mmg sporting n suka main2. tapi tiap kali dorg saja2 usha aku cam tu, mesti t'ingat kt Fahri @ Kurma aku tu.huhu.. sbb kdg2 bila aku bohong sunat yg aku ni da ada tunang pun,aku ingat dia ja tu. Astaghfirullah al'azim..aku ni. (>_<);;
*ngantuk* ahh,aku nak tdo jap lah sblm g klas jpn jam 11 nanti. harap2 abis awl lagi. kalo ya,ada masa aku nak mengemas brg2 utk stay kat masjid dan insya-Allah,harap2 smpt buat soklan tutorial Thermodynamics jugak.
Sleeeeeeeeeeeeeep!
Allah yubarik fik semua..
Wednesday, July 16, 2008
Fahri ku sudah menemui Aisha nya?
Bismillahir rahman nir rahim..
Huhu..mcm sadis skit plak tajuk entri kali ni. nda tau lah aku... tetiba ja terfikir ayat (pd tajuk tu) td masa bersiap utk kelas. hehe.
Ashtaghfirullah al'azim... ampuni aku ya Allah kalo aku berdosa (berghibah @ m'fitnah etc etc) selepas ini. Nauzubillah..
Al-kisahnya...adalah aku terdengar kwnku crita (scr x lgsg ja pun) psl org yg aku suka (masih pendam ja ni..toksah nak luah.tiba masa dgn izin Allah,tgklah mcmana..hehe). Biar aku gelar org tu 'Kurma' ja lah..nama samaran yg aku n kakakku buat semlm tu masa berborak. Aisese..terasa cam dlm mimpi aku plak (entri 'Dream abt him..') pasal si Kurma ni da bertunang (>_<);; sbbnya kwnku ckp adalah kabar angin yg Kurma suka kat seseorg yg aku agak kenal jugak. Secocok dorg tu (sepa lah aku nie.huahuahua) Itupun dgr2 ja. So,kami pun nda lah crita pjg lebar psl hal tu sgt. Kang sampai jadi b'ghibah (m'umpat) @ m'fitnah org..haaah,kena tanggung dosa tu! Nauzubillah..
Jadi,aku saja lepas 'tension' kat sini.
Anyway,baru jer tadi sorg kwn dr course engineering lain yg suka bebenor panggil aku 'Rosalinda' sms. Dia ada tanya jugak pasal perubahan aku dari sem 1 sampai sem 3 skrg ni. Lbh2 lagi pasal aku baru start pakai tudung sem lalu (sem 2).
kalo nak jawab mcmana aku ni blh tergerak hati untuk berubah ni,aku pun xtau lah mcmana mau jwb secara exact-nya. Petunjuk,taufik & hidayah tu milik & kuasa Allah. Bersyukurlah dgn walau setitik hidayah pun dari-Nya.blh jadi setitik hidayah itu bagaikan nila yg mana ada pepatah m'gatakan "kerana nila setitik,rosak susu sebelanga". tapi kita ambil maksud positif lah.. maksud aku,mcm... dgn sedikit hidayah yg Allah berikan,kita teruslah berusaha mencari ilmu untuk menguatkan lagi hidayah & iman kita.
sejak pakai tudung sem lalu,coursemate2 aku..suka sgt panggil aku uztazah.yg lelaki lah..tapi nda pah lah... doa tu~ amin. masa pi kuliah tadi pun,begitu juga.hehe.suka-suka dorg ja lah~
nantilah,insya-Allah..aku pun uploadkan cerita pasal aku memula pakai tudung~ nanti minta copy dari Hyrul. Alhamdulillah,berjaya juga aku tulis/taip cerita tu dgn bantuan Hyrul. Syukran ya Hyrul An-an. hehe.
bah...skrg nyibuk d bilik kakakku nie. sempat lagi ber-video kol dgn Aby td.
Huhu..mcm sadis skit plak tajuk entri kali ni. nda tau lah aku... tetiba ja terfikir ayat (pd tajuk tu) td masa bersiap utk kelas. hehe.
Ashtaghfirullah al'azim... ampuni aku ya Allah kalo aku berdosa (berghibah @ m'fitnah etc etc) selepas ini. Nauzubillah..
Al-kisahnya...adalah aku terdengar kwnku crita (scr x lgsg ja pun) psl org yg aku suka (masih pendam ja ni..toksah nak luah.tiba masa dgn izin Allah,tgklah mcmana..hehe). Biar aku gelar org tu 'Kurma' ja lah..nama samaran yg aku n kakakku buat semlm tu masa berborak. Aisese..terasa cam dlm mimpi aku plak (entri 'Dream abt him..') pasal si Kurma ni da bertunang (>_<);; sbbnya kwnku ckp adalah kabar angin yg Kurma suka kat seseorg yg aku agak kenal jugak. Secocok dorg tu (sepa lah aku nie.huahuahua) Itupun dgr2 ja. So,kami pun nda lah crita pjg lebar psl hal tu sgt. Kang sampai jadi b'ghibah (m'umpat) @ m'fitnah org..haaah,kena tanggung dosa tu! Nauzubillah..
Jadi,aku saja lepas 'tension' kat sini.
Anyway,baru jer tadi sorg kwn dr course engineering lain yg suka bebenor panggil aku 'Rosalinda' sms. Dia ada tanya jugak pasal perubahan aku dari sem 1 sampai sem 3 skrg ni. Lbh2 lagi pasal aku baru start pakai tudung sem lalu (sem 2).
kalo nak jawab mcmana aku ni blh tergerak hati untuk berubah ni,aku pun xtau lah mcmana mau jwb secara exact-nya. Petunjuk,taufik & hidayah tu milik & kuasa Allah. Bersyukurlah dgn walau setitik hidayah pun dari-Nya.blh jadi setitik hidayah itu bagaikan nila yg mana ada pepatah m'gatakan "kerana nila setitik,rosak susu sebelanga". tapi kita ambil maksud positif lah.. maksud aku,mcm... dgn sedikit hidayah yg Allah berikan,kita teruslah berusaha mencari ilmu untuk menguatkan lagi hidayah & iman kita.
sejak pakai tudung sem lalu,coursemate2 aku..suka sgt panggil aku uztazah.yg lelaki lah..tapi nda pah lah... doa tu~ amin. masa pi kuliah tadi pun,begitu juga.hehe.suka-suka dorg ja lah~
nantilah,insya-Allah..aku pun uploadkan cerita pasal aku memula pakai tudung~ nanti minta copy dari Hyrul. Alhamdulillah,berjaya juga aku tulis/taip cerita tu dgn bantuan Hyrul. Syukran ya Hyrul An-an. hehe.
bah...skrg nyibuk d bilik kakakku nie. sempat lagi ber-video kol dgn Aby td.
Tuesday, July 15, 2008
Alhamdulillah..
Bismillahirrahman nir rahim...
Syukran jazilan ya Allah.. Sesungguh Engkau maha Berkuasa atas segala sesuatu. Dan hanya kepadaMU aku berdoa.. Moga Engkau beri kekuatan pd hati ku yang serba lemah ini. Amin.
Alhamdulillah.. registration untuk SPB aku da ok.. Dr.Ismail da masukkan nama aku dlm list pelajar yg ambi SPB,jd skrg prob aku dgn registration ini hanya Technopreneurship ja yg belum lg aku dpt reg tu. Insya-Allah,harap2 besok dpt.. kwn2 yg lain dpt sudah... la haula wa la quwwatta illa billah...
Lucu petang tadi. Saja2 kenakan Hyrul di kafe td. Sengaja sms dia bgtau aku nmpak dia di kafe,dia pun blslah tanya mana aku. Pas aku balas "salam.kt blkg awak.",spt yg aku jangka (nda lah 100%).. dia menoleh blkg & m'cari2. kiut biut muka budak ni mencari2.hehe. Astaghfirullah hal'azim... nda baik aku nie. Maafkan ku,Hyrul...ampuniku ya Allah..
ari ni mkn mlm awl sbb kelas SPB start jam 7mlm..huhu. mkn roti telur ja aku~ xda selera sgt mo mkn nasi..
weeeh..bestnya td pas blk dr kelas,aku singgah pi kafe beli teh tarik ping (uinah..fave drink aku sudah nie!).pas tu jln dgn Wenn Lian lah ke blok masing2. Jumpa plak aku dgn si Mas. Wah,rindu aku mo b'crita2 dgn dia nie. Syg,kelas Jpn kami x sama2 sudah. xpalah..ketentuan Allah.. manatau itu lbh baik. Wallahu'ahlam.
nasib baik sempat juga minta no. dia td (sbnrnya dia yg minta tlg..ey..ya ka? ah,mana2 ja la bah..). ada jugak dia tanya kalo masih ada kekosongan tempat utk usrah Hyrul yg aku ikut. Alhamdulillah, syukur lah bila bertambah kwn yg mo join usrah. tapi ada kemungkinan Hyrul xkan buat plak usrah lagi sudah..sbb sibuk. *aku faham..aku faham* begitu jugak dgn Azie. *sobs* Sedih sbb 2 org ni lah yg slalu bantu aku bab2 agama~ moga Allah slalu memberkati mrk berdua nie..amin!
ckp pasal usrah nie,insya-Allah..moga2 kalo ada kesempatan,mau jugak aku cari ja kwn2 yg ada masa utk diluangkan & mo join usrah..n then try buat usrah kecil2an.moga2 dpt lah.. *doakan saya ya,kawan-kawan..* Rasanya Ina,Reena,Dieja,Nana & Qiqie..mesti ok punya tu. Blh minta bantuan Ina & Dieja jadi naqibah.hehe.Aku plak tukang cari artikel..ceehh,merancang sudah plak.Insya-Allah..aku ni pun rancang2 sendiri2 dulu. kena tgk keadaan dulu...hehe.
lg satu..insya-Allah juga..moga diizinkan & diberi ilham oleh Allah supaya aku dptlah tulis2 artikel Islamik walau pendek untuk share dgn kwn2.jadi rojak blog aku ni pun..x kesah lah...yg penting,ilmu yg ada di dada tu..mestilah dikongsi. makin byk dikongsi,makin dalam ilmu itu~ wallahu'ahlam.
oklah...byk tulis suda aku ni. berat sudah kepala aku.rumet pun semua suda tido. kelas pagi juga besok..setiap hari kelas start jam 8pg~ xpalah.. Allah bg aku peluang bgn Subuh awal tu! Alhamdulillah..!!
aites,time to sleep. lampu bilik pun blum tutup lagi nie..kesian plak aku dgn bebudak ni.(huhu,rasanya aku cam yg plg tua dlm blk ni..).
p.s: Lupa plak aku..skrg ni try meng-aktifkan diri dlm forum ILuvIslam..ada link kan d sidebar ni..trylah join ya,kwn2!
Wasalamun alaik..
Syukran jazilan ya Allah.. Sesungguh Engkau maha Berkuasa atas segala sesuatu. Dan hanya kepadaMU aku berdoa.. Moga Engkau beri kekuatan pd hati ku yang serba lemah ini. Amin.
Alhamdulillah.. registration untuk SPB aku da ok.. Dr.Ismail da masukkan nama aku dlm list pelajar yg ambi SPB,jd skrg prob aku dgn registration ini hanya Technopreneurship ja yg belum lg aku dpt reg tu. Insya-Allah,harap2 besok dpt.. kwn2 yg lain dpt sudah... la haula wa la quwwatta illa billah...
Lucu petang tadi. Saja2 kenakan Hyrul di kafe td. Sengaja sms dia bgtau aku nmpak dia di kafe,dia pun blslah tanya mana aku. Pas aku balas "salam.kt blkg awak.",spt yg aku jangka (nda lah 100%).. dia menoleh blkg & m'cari2. kiut biut muka budak ni mencari2.hehe. Astaghfirullah hal'azim... nda baik aku nie. Maafkan ku,Hyrul...ampuniku ya Allah..
ari ni mkn mlm awl sbb kelas SPB start jam 7mlm..huhu. mkn roti telur ja aku~ xda selera sgt mo mkn nasi..
weeeh..bestnya td pas blk dr kelas,aku singgah pi kafe beli teh tarik ping (uinah..fave drink aku sudah nie!).pas tu jln dgn Wenn Lian lah ke blok masing2. Jumpa plak aku dgn si Mas. Wah,rindu aku mo b'crita2 dgn dia nie. Syg,kelas Jpn kami x sama2 sudah. xpalah..ketentuan Allah.. manatau itu lbh baik. Wallahu'ahlam.
nasib baik sempat juga minta no. dia td (sbnrnya dia yg minta tlg..ey..ya ka? ah,mana2 ja la bah..). ada jugak dia tanya kalo masih ada kekosongan tempat utk usrah Hyrul yg aku ikut. Alhamdulillah, syukur lah bila bertambah kwn yg mo join usrah. tapi ada kemungkinan Hyrul xkan buat plak usrah lagi sudah..sbb sibuk. *aku faham..aku faham* begitu jugak dgn Azie. *sobs* Sedih sbb 2 org ni lah yg slalu bantu aku bab2 agama~ moga Allah slalu memberkati mrk berdua nie..amin!
ckp pasal usrah nie,insya-Allah..moga2 kalo ada kesempatan,mau jugak aku cari ja kwn2 yg ada masa utk diluangkan & mo join usrah..n then try buat usrah kecil2an.moga2 dpt lah.. *doakan saya ya,kawan-kawan..* Rasanya Ina,Reena,Dieja,Nana & Qiqie..mesti ok punya tu. Blh minta bantuan Ina & Dieja jadi naqibah.hehe.Aku plak tukang cari artikel..ceehh,merancang sudah plak.Insya-Allah..aku ni pun rancang2 sendiri2 dulu. kena tgk keadaan dulu...hehe.
lg satu..insya-Allah juga..moga diizinkan & diberi ilham oleh Allah supaya aku dptlah tulis2 artikel Islamik walau pendek untuk share dgn kwn2.jadi rojak blog aku ni pun..x kesah lah...yg penting,ilmu yg ada di dada tu..mestilah dikongsi. makin byk dikongsi,makin dalam ilmu itu~ wallahu'ahlam.
oklah...byk tulis suda aku ni. berat sudah kepala aku.rumet pun semua suda tido. kelas pagi juga besok..setiap hari kelas start jam 8pg~ xpalah.. Allah bg aku peluang bgn Subuh awal tu! Alhamdulillah..!!
aites,time to sleep. lampu bilik pun blum tutup lagi nie..kesian plak aku dgn bebudak ni.(huhu,rasanya aku cam yg plg tua dlm blk ni..).
p.s: Lupa plak aku..skrg ni try meng-aktifkan diri dlm forum ILuvIslam..ada link kan d sidebar ni..trylah join ya,kwn2!
Wasalamun alaik..
apa-apa je lah..
Bismillahirrahman nirrahim...
Hari ni rasa nak pos entri dlm BM. haha..! Lain hari,bahasa lain lagi kot..haha,wallahu'ahlam.
Apa2 pun.. kemarin da langsai bayar yuran pengajian untuk sem 3 ni. Alhamdulillah..
Hehe,pas dari bayar yuran tu..kaki ni naik gatal plak mo pi bandar membeli sesuatu yg sda lama di-idam2 kan..hohoh.Jln dgn Ina & Ng pas uruskan hal hostel Ina & yuran aku. Alhamdulillah,ada duit lbh & brg tu pun nda bh dr budgetku..jd dptlah aku beli henfon nokia 6085 (clamp/flip).hehe. bukan apa,dr dulu sampai skrg nda dpt2 lagi henfon flip sendiri..hehe. skali mau beli no. maxis baru tu sbb mau ber-3G (video kol) dgn org di rumah esp Aby.
Wallahu'ahlam... alih2 bila aku da beli no. maxis baru yg cambest no. nya... sorg adik junior dr blk sebelah bg aku simcard hotlink aku yg lama. terkejut aku (sbb aku nampak atas meja aku pas mandi..). bila tanya mana dia jumpa,senyum tersengih2 plak budak ni. hehe,cayang kat Am(adik junior tu)~
haiz..rasa rugi jugak sbb suda beli no. baru tu kan..tapi xpalah... Allah lbh mengetahui yg aku akan dpt balik no. hotlink aku tu kemarin..
semlm exercise time malam aku..hehe. dari dgr tazkirah uztaz Sarip di surau Nur E-Man..aku tunggu Maznee abis solat Isya'. Sda rancang dgn dia mau pi masjid utk meeting AJK Disiplin & Kebajikan prog Pembangunan Modal Insan. aku ni sukarelawati jer..hehe. nda pa,sambil jadi AJK.. aku pun mau celup ilmu skit2 jugak sepjg prog tu nanti.
ohoho...aku berjaya pujuk Hyrul tuk ikut klas Maths 3 sem ni..da final year bdk ni,tapi blm ambi lg subjek tu..hehe.sempat2 lg dia ni nak malu2 masuk kelas kemarin (aku dtg lbh awal). byk jugak senior thn 3-4 yg ambi subjek ni sem ni.. tapi lecturer x muncul2 plak kemarin. punya semangat aku tu!! >_<
dua2 klas aku xda kemarin..sbb tu gatal hati mau pi bandar. padahal baru ja ari seblmnya (ari ahad),aku pi bandar dgn Ina,Reena & Qiqie. Fuiiyoo.. berjalan sakan kami. bukan apa,mencari tudung,tikar & baju punya pasallah. aku byk beli tudung & buku2 agama. Ada jugak belikan Tafsir Quran untuk Ina sbg bday present dia.Hehe,nanti pandai2 lah aku pi pinjam tu..pasti punya.
Pening kepala dgn jadual... mau tukar jadual kelas jepun..tapi Fern xmo lah plak..susah gak..adeh.. nda pa lah,insya-Allah..ok.
Alahai..skit lagi lupa.. Ahad yg lalu ialah hari ulangtahun anak buah kesyganku, Aby. Pi singgah rumah dulu sblm pi bandar dgn Ina,Reena & Qiqie tu... mcm2 gelagat budak2 di rumah tu.huhu,Najib yg first time main musical chair tapi jd org pertama out, jd emo plak..dia menangis berabis sampai di luar rumah. Alahai,budak2..
*pause - ckp d tlepon*
aiseh...mlm ni ada kelas Seni Peribumi Borneo.. nanti lagi lah aku sambung balik entri nie..huhu..bingung2 plak..
*gone!* puff!
Hari ni rasa nak pos entri dlm BM. haha..! Lain hari,bahasa lain lagi kot..haha,wallahu'ahlam.
Apa2 pun.. kemarin da langsai bayar yuran pengajian untuk sem 3 ni. Alhamdulillah..
Hehe,pas dari bayar yuran tu..kaki ni naik gatal plak mo pi bandar membeli sesuatu yg sda lama di-idam2 kan..hohoh.Jln dgn Ina & Ng pas uruskan hal hostel Ina & yuran aku. Alhamdulillah,ada duit lbh & brg tu pun nda bh dr budgetku..jd dptlah aku beli henfon nokia 6085 (clamp/flip).hehe. bukan apa,dr dulu sampai skrg nda dpt2 lagi henfon flip sendiri..hehe. skali mau beli no. maxis baru tu sbb mau ber-3G (video kol) dgn org di rumah esp Aby.
Wallahu'ahlam... alih2 bila aku da beli no. maxis baru yg cambest no. nya... sorg adik junior dr blk sebelah bg aku simcard hotlink aku yg lama. terkejut aku (sbb aku nampak atas meja aku pas mandi..). bila tanya mana dia jumpa,senyum tersengih2 plak budak ni. hehe,cayang kat Am(adik junior tu)~
haiz..rasa rugi jugak sbb suda beli no. baru tu kan..tapi xpalah... Allah lbh mengetahui yg aku akan dpt balik no. hotlink aku tu kemarin..
semlm exercise time malam aku..hehe. dari dgr tazkirah uztaz Sarip di surau Nur E-Man..aku tunggu Maznee abis solat Isya'. Sda rancang dgn dia mau pi masjid utk meeting AJK Disiplin & Kebajikan prog Pembangunan Modal Insan. aku ni sukarelawati jer..hehe. nda pa,sambil jadi AJK.. aku pun mau celup ilmu skit2 jugak sepjg prog tu nanti.
ohoho...aku berjaya pujuk Hyrul tuk ikut klas Maths 3 sem ni..da final year bdk ni,tapi blm ambi lg subjek tu..hehe.sempat2 lg dia ni nak malu2 masuk kelas kemarin (aku dtg lbh awal). byk jugak senior thn 3-4 yg ambi subjek ni sem ni.. tapi lecturer x muncul2 plak kemarin. punya semangat aku tu!! >_<
dua2 klas aku xda kemarin..sbb tu gatal hati mau pi bandar. padahal baru ja ari seblmnya (ari ahad),aku pi bandar dgn Ina,Reena & Qiqie. Fuiiyoo.. berjalan sakan kami. bukan apa,mencari tudung,tikar & baju punya pasallah. aku byk beli tudung & buku2 agama. Ada jugak belikan Tafsir Quran untuk Ina sbg bday present dia.Hehe,nanti pandai2 lah aku pi pinjam tu..pasti punya.
Pening kepala dgn jadual... mau tukar jadual kelas jepun..tapi Fern xmo lah plak..susah gak..adeh.. nda pa lah,insya-Allah..ok.
Alahai..skit lagi lupa.. Ahad yg lalu ialah hari ulangtahun anak buah kesyganku, Aby. Pi singgah rumah dulu sblm pi bandar dgn Ina,Reena & Qiqie tu... mcm2 gelagat budak2 di rumah tu.huhu,Najib yg first time main musical chair tapi jd org pertama out, jd emo plak..dia menangis berabis sampai di luar rumah. Alahai,budak2..
*pause - ckp d tlepon*
aiseh...mlm ni ada kelas Seni Peribumi Borneo.. nanti lagi lah aku sambung balik entri nie..huhu..bingung2 plak..
*gone!* puff!
Saturday, July 12, 2008
dream about him..
Bismillahirrahman nir rahim...
Woke up feeling queasy.
Got a dream about the guy that I like (really like) has a fiancee. FIANCEE!! >_< but he did say (in the dream) that he doesn't really like her though. Ugh... hope it's not true!! *heartbreaks*
But it doesn't mean that I want him so badly that I want him as my boyfriend/couple like other girls would. I do want to be someone special for him.
And for me,even if he could and become my special-one..I wanted him to stay the way he is now.. and I would love to limit ourselves as well. Means..there's no need of dating,holding hands,hugging,keep on saying 'I love you'.Instead, it's better to always advising each other,keeping distance until we're halal for each other(insya-Allah). Sounds crappy for modern couple? I don't mind. All I wanted is just..urm..ah, to be with him with the "permission" from Allah s.w.t. But Allah knows best. He knows everything. We planned,and He planned but His plan is always the best one for us. So, if that guy is not for me and I'm not for him..what can we (more like, me) can do. Redha only lahh... no need to fuss about it.
But seriously, I would be lying if I won't fuss about it. I'm human too,you see. That's why I must ensure I'm physically and emotionally ready with knowledges about Allah and Islam and also,most importantly; tawakal to Allah. La haula wa la quwatta illa billah.
ahh.. I felt like all the things I've typed are something that I'm been keeping inside and wanted to let out.Alhamdulillah,I've did it :) yatta!
I won't let this emotional feeling of love *roll eyes* let me down. I believe it could be part of Allah tests for me to see how much I love Him more. And Allah is the GREATEST LOVE of all. Allahu akhbar!
Here's something I typed in my N73 out of randomness yesterday (or maybe Friday);
Story of a "friend"
This friend of mine has liked a guy in the campus she attended for almost the longest time she ever fall for any guy in that campus. She herself doesn't understand much of her feelings towards him. When she first had crush on this guy,he didn't know who she is. She knew him for he is one of the top person in the campus.
Then, the guy eventually started to realize her presence and they became friends.
Up until now,they are still friends...good friends. She doesn't know if he did know about her feelings but she kept her silence. She wanted to tell him how important he is to her and that she likes him but afraid things might turn nasty for both of them.
And she,herself is not desperate in wanting to have couple or whatsoever.
She just like him for who he is, even that he doesn't have the looks (not handsome). That's not what she wants though.
So, now she can only let things flow as God has planned and pray to God so that she'll be with somebody as good as the guy or better than him or maybe if destined,with the guy himself.
Woke up feeling queasy.
Got a dream about the guy that I like (really like) has a fiancee. FIANCEE!! >_< but he did say (in the dream) that he doesn't really like her though. Ugh... hope it's not true!! *heartbreaks*
But it doesn't mean that I want him so badly that I want him as my boyfriend/couple like other girls would. I do want to be someone special for him.
And for me,even if he could and become my special-one..I wanted him to stay the way he is now.. and I would love to limit ourselves as well. Means..there's no need of dating,holding hands,hugging,keep on saying 'I love you'.Instead, it's better to always advising each other,keeping distance until we're halal for each other(insya-Allah). Sounds crappy for modern couple? I don't mind. All I wanted is just..urm..ah, to be with him with the "permission" from Allah s.w.t. But Allah knows best. He knows everything. We planned,and He planned but His plan is always the best one for us. So, if that guy is not for me and I'm not for him..what can we (more like, me) can do. Redha only lahh... no need to fuss about it.
But seriously, I would be lying if I won't fuss about it. I'm human too,you see. That's why I must ensure I'm physically and emotionally ready with knowledges about Allah and Islam and also,most importantly; tawakal to Allah. La haula wa la quwatta illa billah.
ahh.. I felt like all the things I've typed are something that I'm been keeping inside and wanted to let out.Alhamdulillah,I've did it :) yatta!
I won't let this emotional feeling of love *roll eyes* let me down. I believe it could be part of Allah tests for me to see how much I love Him more. And Allah is the GREATEST LOVE of all. Allahu akhbar!
Here's something I typed in my N73 out of randomness yesterday (or maybe Friday);
Story of a "friend"
This friend of mine has liked a guy in the campus she attended for almost the longest time she ever fall for any guy in that campus. She herself doesn't understand much of her feelings towards him. When she first had crush on this guy,he didn't know who she is. She knew him for he is one of the top person in the campus.
Then, the guy eventually started to realize her presence and they became friends.
Up until now,they are still friends...good friends. She doesn't know if he did know about her feelings but she kept her silence. She wanted to tell him how important he is to her and that she likes him but afraid things might turn nasty for both of them.
And she,herself is not desperate in wanting to have couple or whatsoever.
She just like him for who he is, even that he doesn't have the looks (not handsome). That's not what she wants though.
So, now she can only let things flow as God has planned and pray to God so that she'll be with somebody as good as the guy or better than him or maybe if destined,with the guy himself.
Friday, July 11, 2008
today ish.....
Bismillahir rahman nir rahim..
actuallyyyyyy............ i dun really hav anything much to type here..just finish our 1st Lvl 3 Japanese class earlier (than we're supposed to,according to d schedule.hehe)
today wen to SKTM for Statistics class but no lecturer,ending up everyone went back/ go to wherever they wanna go XD i went back to hostel to get d Applied Mechanics notes for some coursemates dat havent got it yday :) in d same time sms-ing with Hyrul since he asked me about some mandarin phases to include in his speech. Aiya..biasalah YDP..kena beri ucapan punya..hehe.orang penting tu...
today,i woke up earlier than usual..1 hour than usual,to be exact.woke up at 5 am,sat on my chair in front of my desk..then suddenly heard some1's voice like reading out Surah from d holy Quran. I thot some1 was reading it in d surau.. alih-alih,after bath then i realize it was d solat subuh. it was d imam's voice.
alas,bad things did happened to me this morning...starting off with me honked by d bus driver. wargh!! not my fault!! i cant see d bus bah...coz another BIG bus was blocking my view.d hostel area is so small bah...wat u expect?!! but i dont dare to argue with d campus bus driver lahh... some of them r kinda brutal XD hahah!
then then... i dropped my N73 on d ground...huhu,Alhamdulillah..still ok.thx 2 d outer plastic casing my N73 ish protected.hehe. Alhamdulillah..
met Hyrul in SKTM. kasian ni budak... heard from him n Qiqie(who was in d same bus with him earlier) about him dropped by d bus driver at hostel AB instead of SKTM.then he had to walk to SKTM (aiya...not far bah..no worries.but he's ody so skinny.hehe. Hyrul jan marah~! :P ) he went to meet his supervisor for his fyp n i wantd to meet my lecturer(s) too but i end up meeting none of them.haha.
yeay,Alhamdulillah...got d pics dat ive wanted to see since holidays.hehe. *happy*
*pause* time to solat first. be back with some story i typed in my hp later...
actuallyyyyyy............ i dun really hav anything much to type here..just finish our 1st Lvl 3 Japanese class earlier (than we're supposed to,according to d schedule.hehe)
today wen to SKTM for Statistics class but no lecturer,ending up everyone went back/ go to wherever they wanna go XD i went back to hostel to get d Applied Mechanics notes for some coursemates dat havent got it yday :) in d same time sms-ing with Hyrul since he asked me about some mandarin phases to include in his speech. Aiya..biasalah YDP..kena beri ucapan punya..hehe.orang penting tu...
today,i woke up earlier than usual..1 hour than usual,to be exact.woke up at 5 am,sat on my chair in front of my desk..then suddenly heard some1's voice like reading out Surah from d holy Quran. I thot some1 was reading it in d surau.. alih-alih,after bath then i realize it was d solat subuh. it was d imam's voice.
alas,bad things did happened to me this morning...starting off with me honked by d bus driver. wargh!! not my fault!! i cant see d bus bah...coz another BIG bus was blocking my view.d hostel area is so small bah...wat u expect?!! but i dont dare to argue with d campus bus driver lahh... some of them r kinda brutal XD hahah!
then then... i dropped my N73 on d ground...huhu,Alhamdulillah..still ok.thx 2 d outer plastic casing my N73 ish protected.hehe. Alhamdulillah..
met Hyrul in SKTM. kasian ni budak... heard from him n Qiqie(who was in d same bus with him earlier) about him dropped by d bus driver at hostel AB instead of SKTM.then he had to walk to SKTM (aiya...not far bah..no worries.but he's ody so skinny.hehe. Hyrul jan marah~! :P ) he went to meet his supervisor for his fyp n i wantd to meet my lecturer(s) too but i end up meeting none of them.haha.
yeay,Alhamdulillah...got d pics dat ive wanted to see since holidays.hehe. *happy*
*pause* time to solat first. be back with some story i typed in my hp later...
Thursday, July 10, 2008
tired.......
Bismillahirrahman nir rahim...
PEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEENAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAT..............
wuinah..really tired and hot now.huhu. nvm,nvm..at least still can be alive. Alhamdulillah.. got lots of things to do and settle. Alhamdulillah manage to finish about half of my tasks(so far..).
good thing about this would be that if it continues to be like this at least til the half of the sem,i might lose some weight. nyak nyak nyak..
not only dat,d busy-ness dat im havin just might be something Allah gave me to make me forget any bad things happening around. i shouldn't put "bad", i mean things dat might just made me sad,frustrated or stress(e.g: registration in d smp...). Alhamdulillah.
"Fa inna ma'al usriyus rho" (94:5) which means 'maka,dalam kesulitan itu ada kemudahan' (in every difficulty,there will be blessing/something good).
Dat is d phase dat i treasure a lot from d holy Quran.Because I know no matter how stressful or messed up d situation im in..Allah will always be there,for me..for everyone.I just have to pray for Him,zikr(remember Him) and do the right things all for Allah.
*stops for solat Zuhur*
Allahu akhbar.
PEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEENAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAT..............
wuinah..really tired and hot now.huhu. nvm,nvm..at least still can be alive. Alhamdulillah.. got lots of things to do and settle. Alhamdulillah manage to finish about half of my tasks(so far..).
good thing about this would be that if it continues to be like this at least til the half of the sem,i might lose some weight. nyak nyak nyak..
not only dat,d busy-ness dat im havin just might be something Allah gave me to make me forget any bad things happening around. i shouldn't put "bad", i mean things dat might just made me sad,frustrated or stress(e.g: registration in d smp...). Alhamdulillah.
"Fa inna ma'al usriyus rho" (94:5) which means 'maka,dalam kesulitan itu ada kemudahan' (in every difficulty,there will be blessing/something good).
Dat is d phase dat i treasure a lot from d holy Quran.Because I know no matter how stressful or messed up d situation im in..Allah will always be there,for me..for everyone.I just have to pray for Him,zikr(remember Him) and do the right things all for Allah.
*stops for solat Zuhur*
Allahu akhbar.
yet..another randomness.. I suppose?
Bismillah..
here is an Islamic poem I made during the holidays... :) its in BM though~
Jasad manusia bagaikan suatu dataran luas yang punya tanah yang subur.
Hati itu tempatnya benih keimanan ditanamkan.
Dan seperti benih-benih yang lainnya, benih keimanan ini juga perlu zat galian.
Akal fikiran manusia itulah yang menjadi zat-zat galian yang terus-menerus membantu tumbesaran benih itu.
Ibadah-ibadah wajib ibarat air yang menyirami jasad supaya benih keimanan itu dapat terus tumbuh dengan suburnya.
Ibadah sunat dan amalan ‘amal makruf nahi mungkar’ dalam kehidupan seharian pula bagaikan sinaran matahari yang menyinari tumbuhan di siang hari.
Jika setiap itu menjadi benih keimanan ini setiap hari dengan istiqamahnya, insya-Allah pasti benih yang sekecil zarah pun boleh tumbuh menjadi sebuah pokok punya akar yang mencengkam kuat pada tempat tanamannya (diri manusia itu sendiri).
Begitulah hakikat kehidupan manusia di dunia yang Allah pinjamkan ini sebelum tibanya Hari Kiamat dan Hari Pembangkitan.
Namun, sayang sekali tidak ramai yang menyedari.
Hasil nukilan;
Rosdianah Ramli
here is an Islamic poem I made during the holidays... :) its in BM though~
Jasad manusia bagaikan suatu dataran luas yang punya tanah yang subur.
Hati itu tempatnya benih keimanan ditanamkan.
Dan seperti benih-benih yang lainnya, benih keimanan ini juga perlu zat galian.
Akal fikiran manusia itulah yang menjadi zat-zat galian yang terus-menerus membantu tumbesaran benih itu.
Ibadah-ibadah wajib ibarat air yang menyirami jasad supaya benih keimanan itu dapat terus tumbuh dengan suburnya.
Ibadah sunat dan amalan ‘amal makruf nahi mungkar’ dalam kehidupan seharian pula bagaikan sinaran matahari yang menyinari tumbuhan di siang hari.
Jika setiap itu menjadi benih keimanan ini setiap hari dengan istiqamahnya, insya-Allah pasti benih yang sekecil zarah pun boleh tumbuh menjadi sebuah pokok punya akar yang mencengkam kuat pada tempat tanamannya (diri manusia itu sendiri).
Begitulah hakikat kehidupan manusia di dunia yang Allah pinjamkan ini sebelum tibanya Hari Kiamat dan Hari Pembangkitan.
Namun, sayang sekali tidak ramai yang menyedari.
Hasil nukilan;
Rosdianah Ramli
randomness....of the night....
bismillah...
im feeling kinda stressed out all of the sudden (thx to the smp registration system..)... so feel like posting something..hoho..
wrote this yday evening wen i thought of someone n something...should it just be left like the way it is..or some action could at least be done? I dunno.. Wallahu'ahlam..
Aku sungguh-sungguh ingin menyatakan
Betapa aku sayang pada dirimu
Betapa penting dirimu untukku
Aku sendiri ingin bersamamu
Tapi tiada daya dan upaya diri ini
Tanpa izin dari Yang Maha Kuasa
Wahai engkau yang aku kasihi
Maafkanlah kelemahan diri ini
Bila perasaan ini tidak dapat dipendam lagi
Namun begitu
Harus juga aku tinggalkan segala
Bila ku sujud memohon keredhaanNya
by Rosdianah @ Deana
im feeling kinda stressed out all of the sudden (thx to the smp registration system..)... so feel like posting something..hoho..
wrote this yday evening wen i thought of someone n something...should it just be left like the way it is..or some action could at least be done? I dunno.. Wallahu'ahlam..
Aku sungguh-sungguh ingin menyatakan
Betapa aku sayang pada dirimu
Betapa penting dirimu untukku
Aku sendiri ingin bersamamu
Tapi tiada daya dan upaya diri ini
Tanpa izin dari Yang Maha Kuasa
Wahai engkau yang aku kasihi
Maafkanlah kelemahan diri ini
Bila perasaan ini tidak dapat dipendam lagi
Namun begitu
Harus juga aku tinggalkan segala
Bila ku sujud memohon keredhaanNya
by Rosdianah @ Deana
Wednesday, July 09, 2008
back to campus!!!!
Bismillahir rahman nir rahim...
yeay,its been abt 3 days ordi dat im back in UMS~~ weeeeeeeeeeeheeeeee.. (dunno why so excited diz). got into new house and new room... it was actually just right to my last session's house XD unlike wat ive predicted (as senior), i got d lower bed. yippie~just like last sem! n my desk/locker is just right next to my bed, so it's really easy for me to move around n most importantly, solat. fun fact of d moment : i'm d only muslim in my room :) but d other girl's r quite considerable. Alhamdulillah... two 2nd yr seniors n two 1st yr juniors.. d other senior is a friend during orientation last session. so,fortunately easy for me to get along with her. as for d juniors, both in same course (food tech) n Chinese. Alhamdulillah, i oso manage to get along with them. mondai ja arimasen :)
neways, jst in dat short period of days..many things had happened.huhu! yday (tue, 8th July) was quite an eventful day for me. yeapz,it is!
1st class of Applied Mechanics (AM) started yday n with mixed feelings of joy,stress,messed,responsiblity n scared..I became d civil's representative diz sem for diz class. how to say eah... not dat i dun wan to become leader.. i wanted to! deep in my heart,yes. but some part of me dat always get to my nerves will always be d feeling of "scared of rejection" or some sort like dat (yang sewaktu dengannya lah..). serious!! >_< i was scared dat i wont be able to fulfill d responsiblity too..Ya Allah, la haula wa la quwatta illa billah~!
but in d end of d day,Alhamdulillah.. i've chose to believe n try to be more responsible n oso... learn how to manage things around so dat i wont messed myself up (at all).
i wanted to join Reena n Qiqie to KK but since i got night class of Seni Peribumi Borneo(SPB), i wasnt able to. uhuh..right before goin to SPB class, i did talked with my roomate (d senior) n she told me she took Karya Agung Shakespeare (of d same code/part of PPIB with SPB). its very easy,she said. n oso not stressful. so,on d way to class in SPS (art school) i kept on thinking to change d subject from SPB to shakespeare. I keep praying to Allah to show me which best for me coz He knows best. guess wat happened? i was chosen by Prof to become d class representative (our class for diz sem is very small.. supposely only 40 something students reg but only 24 showed up last nyt). there goes my plan of trying to drop d subject n take shakespeare..huhu. but i think it must be from Allah for i was chosen means i hav to stay. Alhamdulillah.. Allahu Akhbar!
n again... this morning class is Thermodynamics.huhu..once again, me as representative. Pray for me to be able to handle d responsiblity n time management n all~~~ hahahaha~~~
aite,time to go.. wanna go to photocopy d notes of AM 1st lect yday. time to work..time to work!!
Wasalam..
yeay,its been abt 3 days ordi dat im back in UMS~~ weeeeeeeeeeeheeeeee.. (dunno why so excited diz). got into new house and new room... it was actually just right to my last session's house XD unlike wat ive predicted (as senior), i got d lower bed. yippie~just like last sem! n my desk/locker is just right next to my bed, so it's really easy for me to move around n most importantly, solat. fun fact of d moment : i'm d only muslim in my room :) but d other girl's r quite considerable. Alhamdulillah... two 2nd yr seniors n two 1st yr juniors.. d other senior is a friend during orientation last session. so,fortunately easy for me to get along with her. as for d juniors, both in same course (food tech) n Chinese. Alhamdulillah, i oso manage to get along with them. mondai ja arimasen :)
neways, jst in dat short period of days..many things had happened.huhu! yday (tue, 8th July) was quite an eventful day for me. yeapz,it is!
1st class of Applied Mechanics (AM) started yday n with mixed feelings of joy,stress,messed,responsiblity n scared..I became d civil's representative diz sem for diz class. how to say eah... not dat i dun wan to become leader.. i wanted to! deep in my heart,yes. but some part of me dat always get to my nerves will always be d feeling of "scared of rejection" or some sort like dat (yang sewaktu dengannya lah..). serious!! >_< i was scared dat i wont be able to fulfill d responsiblity too..Ya Allah, la haula wa la quwatta illa billah~!
but in d end of d day,Alhamdulillah.. i've chose to believe n try to be more responsible n oso... learn how to manage things around so dat i wont messed myself up (at all).
i wanted to join Reena n Qiqie to KK but since i got night class of Seni Peribumi Borneo(SPB), i wasnt able to. uhuh..right before goin to SPB class, i did talked with my roomate (d senior) n she told me she took Karya Agung Shakespeare (of d same code/part of PPIB with SPB). its very easy,she said. n oso not stressful. so,on d way to class in SPS (art school) i kept on thinking to change d subject from SPB to shakespeare. I keep praying to Allah to show me which best for me coz He knows best. guess wat happened? i was chosen by Prof to become d class representative (our class for diz sem is very small.. supposely only 40 something students reg but only 24 showed up last nyt). there goes my plan of trying to drop d subject n take shakespeare..huhu. but i think it must be from Allah for i was chosen means i hav to stay. Alhamdulillah.. Allahu Akhbar!
n again... this morning class is Thermodynamics.huhu..once again, me as representative. Pray for me to be able to handle d responsiblity n time management n all~~~ hahahaha~~~
aite,time to go.. wanna go to photocopy d notes of AM 1st lect yday. time to work..time to work!!
Wasalam..
Thursday, July 03, 2008
my...oh..my... this time around of the semester...
Assalamualaikum..
Bismillahir rahman nir rahim...
its been some times since d last time i post any entry... been messed up with registration for the courses of the new sem..arranging the timetables,then re-arranging then re-arranging again...even preparing my stuffs to go back to campus. arrr... cant wait~
neways,this monday i went to UMS with Selvi n Neetu. invited Selvi coz im guessing maybe she can meet up with our ex-primary schoolmate,Azie (same hostel with me). and alhamdulillah, they did meet and can see how Selvi almost cry. too bad Azie has lots of works to do during the MSM (orientation) around this week~
i was supposed to meet with Fern (Jpnese clasmate) but too bad d maxis service was VERY bad dat day..huhu. din even hav d chance to meet her!!
n oso waited almost an hour for some1 who ended up have my besties to gang up with him n tease me.brrr... it was fun though (and I forgot to pay my debt to him then.Astaghfirullah..)
I didn't have anything else much to do during this week.. it's just dat i started to pack my stuffs n clothes.. manage to watch d whole drama of Bambino! starring Matsumoto Jun (and Kitamura Kazuki~)..watching 3rd season of CSI:NY (n having fun watching CSI: SUPREME SUNDAY.. oh! I missed watching TV now!!) and not forgetting too... teaching Aby how to solat individually. Hopefully she'll continue even when i'm back in campus.. InsyaAllah.
p.s: frustrated with blogger...cant upload my pic!! >.< im done.
Wasalam...
Bismillahir rahman nir rahim...
its been some times since d last time i post any entry... been messed up with registration for the courses of the new sem..arranging the timetables,then re-arranging then re-arranging again...even preparing my stuffs to go back to campus. arrr... cant wait~
neways,this monday i went to UMS with Selvi n Neetu. invited Selvi coz im guessing maybe she can meet up with our ex-primary schoolmate,Azie (same hostel with me). and alhamdulillah, they did meet and can see how Selvi almost cry. too bad Azie has lots of works to do during the MSM (orientation) around this week~
i was supposed to meet with Fern (Jpnese clasmate) but too bad d maxis service was VERY bad dat day..huhu. din even hav d chance to meet her!!
n oso waited almost an hour for some1 who ended up have my besties to gang up with him n tease me.brrr... it was fun though (and I forgot to pay my debt to him then.Astaghfirullah..)
I didn't have anything else much to do during this week.. it's just dat i started to pack my stuffs n clothes.. manage to watch d whole drama of Bambino! starring Matsumoto Jun (and Kitamura Kazuki~)..watching 3rd season of CSI:NY (n having fun watching CSI: SUPREME SUNDAY.. oh! I missed watching TV now!!) and not forgetting too... teaching Aby how to solat individually. Hopefully she'll continue even when i'm back in campus.. InsyaAllah.
p.s: frustrated with blogger...cant upload my pic!! >.< im done.
Wasalam...
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